Are You Still Running? The Question I Can't Escape.
- athleteswitheds
- Oct 19, 2016
- 1 min read
People always ask, “Are you still running?”
It is such a simple and well intentioned question, but not one I often answer honestly. I smile and reply, “sometimes, but I do a little bit of everything now”.
I don't dive into the real situation, because the real situation is not something everyone is ready to hear nor am I always ready to share.
If I was, it would likely go a little something like:
“Hey, are you still running?”
“Nope! I haven’t ran in 1 year and 9 ½ months...”
“Why is that?”
“Well I developed an eating disorder my 2nd year of college that lasted for about 4 years. I have had to cut out any strenuous exercise from my life as a part of my recovery to heal both mentally and physically. I am still not healthy enough to exercise right now.”
That is a tough response to spring on someone who isn’t expecting such a personal answer. It is much easier for the both of us if I lie.
But every time I am faced with the question my heart sinks a little. It serves as a reminder of my situation, what I have put myself through and where I am today because of it. It also puts me in a position to lie over and over and over again, which takes a toll on me, it can be tiring.
I will be so excited when the day comes when someone asks and I can say, “Yep, I went for a run this morning!”
It will be freeing in more ways than one.
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